desperate

My Lord, I ache to know You truly...I yearn for Your truth. I want to worship You in spirit and in TRUTH. God, destroy these lies living in my heart! Where Your Holy Spirit is there is freedom - let Him reign in my heart. I don't know what else to do, God, no matter how hard I try, I can't change my desires. I need Your Holy Spirit. Teach me to surrender myself to You Lord, because I don't even know how to do that. I need You for everything, I need Your help even to turn to You. Thank You that Your grace toward me is so great. Thank You that You've searched me and You know me, and still You love me. God, I'm wanting You so much, it makes me want to cry. Please take these chains off me, PLEASE let me come to You, to be with You and know You! Let EVERYTHING else fall away from me!! Please show me Your way, because all my hope is in You. I don't know how to juggle all these different things in my life - I just don't know where to turn and what to do first - and I lack the strength for any of it. And the confidence, and the motivation. God, I want You so much. I can only find meaning in You. I can only find rest in You. And nothing can give me peace like You do, or delight my heart the way only You can. Nothing in this world can compare to Your love. Thank You that You lavish it on me! Oh Lord, let me come to You as I am, let everything else be stripped away. Please. I want to be with You, and no one else. Hear me! I am so desperate for You. Love, Your mel.