In other developments...I'm growing a new love for the Word of God. This stuff is treasure. I think in my experience, the one thing that causes me to fall much more often than I should, is the lack of God's Word in my life. I think back to all the times of spiritual dryness...those are the times I've neglected the Word the most. I remember my time at the boarding house...it seemed so much easier to hold onto God then, but if I think about it, it's because I allowed the Word of God to continually speak into my life. I had a routine going, when I was back there...every night when the lights were out and it was silent, I'd be in my little corner with my Bible. Maybe it was also because I was reading much of the Bible for the first time...I was just devouring it. And perhaps it was at a time when I was alone, and God was the one thing I had to hold on to. Still, there were times where it got hard, and I felt the quiet times were fruitless, etc. But just continually soaking in the Word, even in those times, I think it made it so much easier to stand up again.
God is bringing that back into my life…goodness…it is much needed. This year has been such a roller-coaster ride for me. I haven’t learned to trust Him fully, I haven’t hungered enough to know Him more fully. Even now as I write this there are things that battle for first place in my life, things that keep trying to take priorities through my actions. The one thing I need to keep me grounded is God’s truth. I need His Spirit.
I’ve been looking at Jesus’ parables, these couple of days…I’ve been especially encouraged by this:
Then (Jesus) said to them, “Suppose one of you has a friend, and he goes to him at midnight and says, ‘Friend, lend me three loaves of bread, because a friend of mine on a journey has come to me, and I have nothing to set before him.’
“Then the one inside answers, ‘Don’t bother me. The door is already locked, and my children are with me in bed. I can’t get up and give you anything.’ I tell you, though he will not get up and give him the bread because he is his friend, yet because of the man’s boldness he will get up and give him as much as he needs.
“So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.
“Which of you fathers, if your son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit to those who ask him!”
I need the Holy Spirit so badly…and I’m going to keep asking, cos I got a Father who loves me. :)
I am learning to become a person of action. You guys know I can get pretty lazy, and pretty often. Everytime I hear a christian say, “Whatever,” or something along the lines of, “I’m not gonna try very hard,” I get that verse from Colossians 3 popping up in my head. Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men. And I’m always itching to bring it up, but from my lips they would be so hypocritical. We need the Spirit to take over.
Also, church was great today. :) So good to be in God’s house, enabled by grace to praise Him despite the circumstances. No power of mine, I tell you…
And hanging with Clarise and Hendy. My oh my…didn’t we have some interesting conversation. :) We talked just about the whole time, about marriage. Hahaha. It was kinda therapeutic, actually, cos I think it’s something we think about but hardly ever talk about, at least really honestly. Marriage…I have many thoughts about it but that will have to be for another time…because this is so the longest post I’ve done in a while. Haha. Be blessed, dear ones!!
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*big hug!!*
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