early morning episode 3

So...I'm going to be here for another month. I miss Sydney already, but I hate the thought of what I'm leaving behind here.

It's 3:30am again, but I can't sleep since I've been up till 7-8am the past few days. Yeah, my sleeping pattern has gone fully upside down again. Gotta meet Ivan's mum tomorrow later this morning at 9 cos we're going to a seminar, but I'll probably be falling asleep in it. I don't really have much else on I guess...we're going to Allison's dance competition on Sunday night, I'm seeing 27 dresses with Ruth on Monday, and I'm meeting Sam for dinner on Tuesday (because she says she has something important to tell me, and won't tell me what until then!)

So this is my life. I haven't done anything you'd call 'productive' for quite a while. There just isn't anything to do. I finished reading Freakonomics a while ago, twas pretty interesting. What else...mostly I've been watching Japanese dramas to pass the time. I hear that some Korean/Chinese dramas are pretty good, but at least Jap dramas help me with my Japanese a little.

Speaking of that, I've enrolled in three classes for this coming semester:
1. Foundations of Law
2. International Relations in the 20th Century
3. Japanese Communication 2A
4. ?????

I still have no idea what to pick for my 4th subject...any suggestions? I'd really like to do French, but I doubt I'll be able to cope with two languages. Perhaps I could do another Level One politics/int relations course? Whatever it is I gotta decide soon, before the classes fill up...

So I guess I'm just typing all this mundane stuff to avoid admitting that my walk with God has been kinda off the rails lately. I initially started this blog to keep track of my spiritual life...to be able to look back at prayers answered, to remember the times God brought me through, and the lessons I've learnt. Sometimes I come with a heart bursting with praise, sometimes I come with questions. Pretty often I come just to vent it out at God some more. But sometimes I'd rather not face God at all, and it's these times I hate the most.

To be honest, I feel like I haven't really been living the past few days. Time just passed by, it was so...hollow. I hate these times, when I don't desire God as much as I should.

I thank God for the end of the week. We have prayer meeting at church on friday nights. I love being with believers, especially those whose hearts burn for God...when I say that it is good to be in the house of God, I mean that it is good to be among such people. It is so good to pray together. Even though I turn up from a spiritual desert, to gather with God's people gives me comfort. God calls me back, sets me right. God said to us, "You will be my people.", "a holy nation". Plural. I'm very thankful for the body of Christ. It's very true that a leaf plucked from a tree will wither and die.

Ah ok it is time to pick up. There are people who need my prayers. And there is a girl who will not truly live until she reenters the presence of her God. Much easier said than done, but still...gotta do it.

Ciao.